I’ve keep going from being extremely busy to having entire days when I have nothing to do.  When I have nothing to do, I sit around and eat all day and I don’t exercise enough.  When I’m busy, I don’t eat as much and I’m usually more active.  However, I do eat a lot more fast food because there’s no time to make anything healthy.  And as a result, I’ve gained weight.  Kind of a lot.  At least ten pounds, probably closer to 15.

Now, granted, some of that is muscle mass.  I went through a phase at the beginning of the month where I did tons of strength training exercises and I’ve definitely seen an increase in muscle in some parts of my body.  The rest, however, is flab.

So, I’m getting back on the wagon today (I say that a lot on this blog, don’t I?).  I’m going to weigh myself later and update my weight on Traineo.  I’m also going to start working out again and not eating everything in sight.  I’m excited and scared at the same time…

This week has been bad for me.  I’ve been kind of sick and I’ve been eating way too much and not exercising enough.  I’m afraid to step on the scale.  I set a goal to lose five more pounds in 30 more days (which will end in a week or two).  So far, I’ve only lost 2 or 3 pounds.  The first five were easy, but these are becoming more difficult.  I’m afriad that I’m not going to make my goal in time.

I’m jumping back on the wagon TODAY, but will it be enough time?!  I really hope so.

In other news, I pigged out on New Year’s Eve/Day.  I suppose it was fitting, though; the last night of 2008 and of my eating habits.  I did pretty well during the day on New Year’s Eve; by 4 PM I had only consumed about 600 calories and was getting ready for the evening festivities.  Even dinner was pretty good, but, as usual, post-dinner eating was my undoing.  Regardless, I’m done with that now and I am ready to move forward.

I gained back about a pound and a half of the four pounds that I lost in the last week, but I’m attributing it to muscle mass.  Am I creating some sort of dilusional euphamism for myself?  I hope not.  My abs are starting to come back out under the jelly, so I guess that’s a good sign.

I’m ready for the fruits of this labor.

I kind of completely forgot about the rules that I made for myself the last time that I posted.  I’m not even kidding.  Completely got lost in the craziness of my life.  But luckily I haven’t really broken any of them yet (except for the new desserts business- screw that.  I need some incentives in my life so I’m forgetting that rule).  So hopefully I’ll remember these rules in the morning.

Good news:  I lost four pounds this week.  I’ve been working my ass of on Wii Fit.  Wii Fit is actually quite amazing; it has helped me to vary my exercises and has made working out very fun.  It’s an excellent motivator and I’m so thankful for it.  Plus, it’s nice to be able to weight myself accurately.  I’m trying to do at least thirty minutes every day, which I’ve been keeping up with (even though it’s only been three days).  Today I did my usual thirty minutes plus an extra thirty minutes of intense cardio.

2009 is going to be an awesome year.  Happy New Year!

Really.

Good news is that I haven’t had any soda in fifteen months.  I think that’s pretty badass and I’m quite proud of myself.  Bad news is that I’ve kind of fallen off the wagon.  My eating habits are less than perfect and my exercise schedule is non-existant.  Well, actually it’s existant but it’s really nothing special.  Becuase of time constraints and the weather, it’s basically walking three times a week for 45 minutes.  It sucks, but it’s better than nothing.

The better news is that I’m going to get whipped into shape (literally).  I want to set some major boundaries for myself and I am really committed to making this work a year later.  So here are my new rules:

• No soda.  I only drink water and iced tea (usually with Splenda) right now, and I’ve been keeping to this for 15 months.
• No french fries.  I started with this and kind of stopped, so I’m starting again.
• Healthier eating at restaurants.  Better portion control and healthier choices.
• 2000 calories a day.  I’m pretty close to this already, so this won’t be a huge problem.
• NO dessert.  Ugh.
• More intense exercise more often.  Logistics TBD.
• More fresh fruits & veggies.

So there you have it.  I know this is going to be hard, but I think I can do it.  I’m going to prove to myself that I can do this.  My fresh start is starting now.

I haven’t updated my Traineo widgets (see sidebar) in a few months.  I stopped counting calories religiously and measuring my workouts because I became obsessive with it.  I’m seriously looking forward to the spring so that I’ll have time to run again and I can do it without fear of going for a run and falling down and freezing to death like the old ladies in that commercial.

One of my resolutions for this year is to post here more often.  Nobody reads it, but it’s nice to have an anonymous blog to post on about this kind of private stuff.  I want to lose 20 lbs. this year.  I’m sure the cake that I just baked isn’t going to be very helpful in achieving my goal.  Oh, well.

• A cold can of vanilla Pepsi.  I haven’t had any soda in almost a month.  I miss it, but it wasn’t too great of a challenge to give up.
• Chicken nuggets from Chic-Fil-A.  No fast food in that long, either.  The only fast food that I will eat is Cool Wraps from Chic-Fil-A, an occasional salad from McDonalds, and sometimes those snack wraps from McDonalds (they’re not that bad).
• To go running.  School is taking up all my time and I haven’t been running in forever.

Eating breakfast at 6 AM does not leave the door open for many healthy choices. My breakfast needs to be prepared in less than ten minutes, and it needs to be very light since I’m not even hungry at 6.

Lunch always has to be portable and small. I will say that my lunches are pretty balanced, but there is still room for improvement.

Snacks are my vice. I always need to have a quick snack in between school and everything else. I’ve promised that I’m not going to waste my money in vending machines anymore, so my snacks are mostly crackers or pretzels.

Dinner recently has been whatever I can pull together since I’ve been so busy (last night, I didn’t even have time for dinner). Needless to say, it’s not that nutritional.

I don’t think that I’ve been eating way too many calories…I try to shoot for 1900 per day, but I think that I’ve been closer to 2100 or 2200 daily over the past two weeks, with less exercise than I would like. I hate school.

If I were to have eaten with them, I would have had a biscut, two drumsticks (Original Style), mashed potatoes, and a soda. Here is nutrition information taken directly from the KFC website:

1940 mg of sodium? 610 calories? No thanks! Instead, I had a Caeser salad, iced tea, and mashed potatoes (from KFC). 480 calories total, and way less sodium, fat, cholesterol, and carbs.

Total calories today? 2070! 456 were burned due to exercise alone (I had some issues today with running). Go me!

I didn’t buy them.